yana love.

perempuan ini nama dia yana. :)
i've always wanted to write about her.
and terima kasih awak, meremind kan saya. :)
here u go yana.

liyana was the name given by encik abd kadir.
yeah, my beloved sister.
she's my love when i'm single. even if i have someone, she'll still be my lover.
she's my bestfriend. she'll be there whenever i need someone.
because she, she's the type of girl that i want.

dia gila dia liar dia hyper
dia ganas dia baik dia lah,
adik saya.

love, dulu-dulu masa kecik,
ingat tak kita selalu bergaduh?
yana selalu mengadu kat ayah kalau abg buat salah?
"ayaaahhh..tadi kan..tadi abg..."
lepastu, abg pun kene la marah.
ayah kan garang. rawr. nanti abg kene rotan.
kena tampar, tapi lepas tu,
yana yang nangis bila abg kene pukul kan?
alahai. kenapa yana nangis?

lepas tu, igt tak ada sampai satu time tu,
kita tak bertegur, lama jugak kan?
sampai mama n ayah taperasan.
kita bergaduh macam musuh ketat.
masa tu kan tade maid, so kita kene sidai baju.
yana takkan sidai baju abg,
and abg takkan sidai baju yana.
pandang taboleh. (macam pandang sebelah mata pun taknak ya?)
kalau angkat baju, angkat pulak heh?
ouh..taknak kantoi ngn mama n ayah. (tau takot kan?)
tapi abg pun sama.

saaaaampai lah beberapa bulan kan? (rasanya lah)
mama perasan. (abg tak ingat la kita gaduh pasal ape tah)
lepas tu, mama panggil kita dua kan kan?
ayah pun ada.
mereka tanya kenapa.
masing2 mengangis sama-sama (tak pasal2)
tak cerita apa2 lagi da nangis da.
(ye, aku mmg cengeng bukan sebab aku kuat menangis, tapi sebab aku mmg sensitive)
tapi lepas tu, kita okay kan?
walau pun kekok. (macam kawan baik yang bergaduh, then baik balik)
it takes time.

sampai abg kene masuk mrsm kan?
bila jauh, that is when i start to love all my sisters and brother.
bila jauh, tade kawan yg nak ajak bergaduh. (seronok bergaduh dgn kau tau tak?)
sebab abg tau, bila kita gaduh, tak lama lepas tu, mesti baik balik.
hahahaha.
kelakar la kau ni.

u were always stood by me no matter what eh?
yes u are love.
i remember when i'm with her,
and she dump me, u stood by me.
and u just cudn't stand to see me sad aren't u?
and u call her and dengan lagak garangnya u scold her didn't u?
"apa kau buat dekat abg aku.."
(yana, garangnya.)
and bila abg tak baik dgn dia,
kau pun taknak baik dgn dia kan?
after all, u are my sister sayang.
and i will always love u.
more than anyone else.
because that's the kind of girl that i want.

bila cuti sekolah,
kita tengok tv sama-sama.
sambil apa?
yeah, sambil makan koko crunch sama-sama.
bermangkuk2 sampai sekotak habis dalam sehari or two at most.
(oh, sampai sekarang abg rindu time kita makan sama2)
koko crunch, terima kasih :)

remember ur first boyfriend? (rasanya lah. kot kalau ada lagi before that yang abg tatau)
i know him, but he's bad.
not for u love.
and rite after that, u broke up with him.
waah. (yana, degil, tapi dengar cakap abg dia)
tau tak kawan2 dia datang cari abg? (gangster tauu..takut aku dibuatnya)
hahahaha. siap ugut aku tau.
(but deep inside u know i will stand by u no matter what love)
pung pang pung pang.
they come to me out of no where, apologized.
funny people (hahahaha sebab aku lagi gangster dari korang la)



"...yana dont u worry,
yana dont u be sad.
cause abg will be worry,
and abg will be sad.
yana yana i am sorry,
for all the wrong that i've said.
yana dont u worry,
cause u're always in my memory..."

okay lah yana u be good,
remember me whenever u can.
study hard,
and there will be reward for u.
abg here will always pray for u.
its not a play time for u now,
its ur future. so study hard dont disappoint mama and ayah.
i'll be here for u no matter what love.

sebenanya macam banyak lagi nak tulis pasal yana ni. tapi nanti i'll write again for u.

love,
abang.

(tiba2 rindu yana bila baca blog ni tau. :) this is my favorite entry. nak re-post balik takpe kan?)

Malasness.

I am studying. :P boleh tak fast foward cepat2? Or just skipped tomorrow? Boleh? Boleh?
Plisss.

Malas lah nak belajar.
Semalam rasa macam nak tulis, tapi rasa tu hilang tiba2. So tak jadi nak tulis la wak. :)

Tapi skrg saya rasa nak tulis. Walaupun tatau sebenanya nk tulis ape.

Sepanjang hari ni, i've been eating chup chups je. Erm, 6 7 batang ada kot?

Housemate da tinggal 5 org. 2 balik malaysia. Semua da abes exam kecuali saya.
semua berseronok kecuali saya.

Erm.. Cola ke tembikai? Trmbikai lah kan? Okay yg ke 8 lolipop!

Arini kames kan? Haih, terlupa lah nak puasa. Bgn2 terus buat nescafe macam biasa. Da ptg br teringat hari ni kames. Hahaha.

Takpelah. Next week puasa okay? Buat pahala sikit. Insya allah. :)

I'm missin a person who usually leave me an offline msgs. :)
Well awak, ;) u know who u are kan kan kan?

Taknk cerita pasal exam sebab i aim for pass je. Tak expect lebih pun based on my last minute effort. Next sem nak jadi nerd (i've said that every end of semester now. Haih) :)

Takpelah. Cuba jugak. Kene blaja kene blaja kene blaja. (motivate diri sendiri) baru lah lisa surihani suka. Mmmpphhh~
(dah mula da berangan lagi)

Hahaha. Okay, saya rindu semua org kt jb.
Saya rindu mama. :) dia post kan spek.. Bila nak sampai ni.
(spek sama je. Sebab dah patah.)
Sebenanya tido masa tgk bola. (tapi i told mama, "biasalah mama, rajin sgt belajar sampai tertido)
Sorry mama. :) menyusahkan mama.
Dulu, kalau kt rumah time2 macam ni, mama ngah nk masak. Nnt selalu lah bertenggek kt cabinet dapur tu..
(konon nk tgk cara mama masak nnt blja kt oversea bole try)
Tapi tak pun. :P duduk teman pot pet pot pet tak habis. Sampai da tak igt dah tadi mama masukkan ape, campur ape..
Hahaha. Rindu lah mama. :)

Lepastu, kalau makan malam. Lauk tak habis je..mesti mama tanya.."abg taknak habiskan sayur ni? Taknak ratah ikan ni ke? Habiskan lah..simpan2 nanti takde org nk makan.."

Emmmpph..biasalah, tgk sampai debab anak mama ni skrg. Sape suro masak sedap? Kan dah..
Lepas tu, time makan2 kalau dulu slalu gaduh ngn yana ke, syahmi ke, lina ke.. N nanti mesti mama cuit kaki abg guna kaki dia. (bawah meja makan lah kan tak nampak)
Maknanya ayah tgh tengok je..nanti kene marah baru tau..

Hehe. Ayah, muka garang. Takut sampai skrg. Tapi dia baik lah.
Kalau mama slalu tanya pasal life kawan2, ayah kalau call je, "study macam mane? Cemerlang tak?"
(pergh..baik punya soalan kan?)
Tapi tu lah ayah. Dia pentingkan pelajaran. :)

Oh rindu mereka.

Okay lah, taknak merepek lagi.
Bye bye bye awak. :D




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Kejap lagi exam chem.
Besok exam lagi.
Tulat exam lagi.
I'm gonna die.
Oh my oh my.
Buah lai buah lai,
Lai lai exam lai.
Okay lah bye.


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exam

besok, exam.

good luck to all my friends.

wish me luck too.

peace.

bye bye awak.

=)

gila study

sebab dah tepu sangat.

saya tgk movie hantu.

lepastu jerit2 sebab tak suka terkejut.

itu saya.

tak kesah lah macam perempuan pun.

saya tak suka terkejut.

nanti perkataan pelik2 keluar.

lepas tgk cerita hantu,

tgk short filem coffee mate tu,

dan perempuan dalam iklan tu, cun.

nama dia azieny amir.

lepas tu, nak cari dalam facebook,

tapi tak jumpa.

google,

tak cukup information.

haih,

tade jodoh agaknya.

okay lah. cari perempuan lain.

bye.

hee. :)

i'm just a man

i am just a man.

i cannot offer u anything.

i cannot give u anything besides my heart.

i'm just a man who can make coffee.

i'm a man of my own.

i'm not good looking.

but i do have some chinese blood in me.

i don't know how to cook.

but i do know how to eat.

i'm just a man.

i don't have any talents,

but i do know how to make people smile.

and i know how to smile back at them.

and i'll make them keep on smiling.

forever and ever.

i'm just a man.

i don't have a strong heart.

but i have a very sensitive heart.

i get mad easily and i cool down easily.

i have lots of tears

and because of that, when it falls,

it falls like a pouring rain.

i'm just a man.

i was born on 16th February 1988.

and i was born with loads of love.

i was born not to hate people.

i have a name,

that have a meaning.

mohd syafiq is the name.

and it means loving.

i've been carry this name for over 22 years now.

and will keep on carry this name until the world comes to and end.

i'm just a man.

i'm not sweet

not because i ate and drank less sugar foods and drinks.

because i'm just a man,

doesnt mean that i have no feelings.

i write what i feel.

eventho sometimes i dont know what i feel.

but all the times, i know what i feel.

and it comes right from the heart,

with a little bit of thinking,

purely from heart.

not from my mind.

i'm just a man.

i'm not a good liar.

when i dont like it,

i'll say it loud and clear.

i'm just a man.

who doesn't like to drive.

i'd love to be the co-driver,

and i can talk talk and talk

until u ask me to stop talking.

i'll stop for 5 seconds before i talk again.

i'm just a man

who loves to talk.

i'm just a man

who is very bad at memorizing things.

i cant remember ur phone number,

i cant remember ur birthday.

but i do remember some birth date.

14/12, 3/3, 28/3, 22/8, 8/9, 7/12,11/2.

because they are the most important person in my life.

sometimes i lost with date.

but i have facebook to help me out.

i'm not a person with full of surprise.

i dont care what people say about me.

but i do care people when they say about my loved ones.

and i dont know how to protect myself

but all i know is i'll protect my loved ones,

i'll fight for them even if i know they dont need me.

i'm just a man.

who write this blog.

and i'll write this blog eventho i know

not everyone will read it.

because

i'm just a man.

blank

it's sunday. i woke up at 10 am.

looking my phone, the battery is dead.

too lazy to get out from my sleeping bag.

so, i crawl to the table to take my laptop.

switched it on.

facebook. play some mafia wars, galacticos football, and my town.

then i' finished.

sebab nk terkencing, so i get out jugak from the sleeping bag.

toilet, after that, make some coffee, and breakfast for myself.

get back in to my sleeping bag.

facebook again. start stalking my ex's like i usually do. every morning.

making sure they're okay.

yes they are. i'm glad. looking at some picture if theirs.

yeah. i miss them.

they are love,

they show me how to feel.

they make me feel happy.

maaf jika ku tidak sempurna.

looking at u now,

ure sooo happy.

all i can do, is taste a lil bit of ur happiness.

love,

u teach me a lot. u make me learn a lot.

and u show me a lot.

part I

my 1st love. :)

ure the most wonderful person that i ever met.

ermm..i know u from form 2 yea?

tuition? u live just across the street.

tapi masa tu, awak da ada boyfriend. :)

tapi saya kawan jugak dgn awak.

petang, jumpa awak kt taman atas.

awak masa tu tak tau pun saya suka awak.

sbb kalau sebut nama awak,

mesti orang akan cakap oh, awek *** ni.

saya sekolah lain, awak sekolah lain.

tapi kita satu sekolah agama sama2.

tu masa kita form 2, darjah 6 sekolah agama.

kita tak sekelas pun. tapi takpelah. dapat tgk awak kt tuition pun jadi lah. :)

masa form 3, kita masuk darjah khas. kelas hari sabtu.

kita sama kelas. :)

tapi, pergi kelas skejap je, pukul 1030 am, rehat,

lepastu balik. ponteng kelas.

awak tau tak, saya suka kat awak lagi.

tapi awak dgn dia lagi.

masa tu nak pmr.

mama suruh saya apply utk mrsm.

saya ikut je lah.

lepas pmr, saya rapat dgn awak.

awak baik. :)

masa tu, awak ngn boyfriend awak, ada masalah.

saya tau dia tak berapa baik. tapi saya tak tau nk ckp kt awak mcm mane.

saya diam je.

sebab kita makin rapat.

saya sayang awak.

satu hari tu, saya tanya awak macam mane dgn bf awak.

awak cakap macam tu la, macam takde ape2.

saya sedih awak cakap mcm tu,

tapi sebenarnya saya gembira sgt.

saya tau awak sedih. sbb awak sayang sgt dekat dia.

awak, saya takde ape2 nk bagi pada awak.

tapi ni lah saya kt depan awak, dan takkan bergerak selagi awak tak suruh saya bergerak.

satu hari tu, saya tanya awak, nak jadi gf saya tak.

awak, saya tak igt macam mane benda tu boleh berlaku.

awak tau lah saya ni pelupa. ehe.

awak kata awak sayang saya jugak.

saya suka sgt.

tapi, masa tu, saya da nk pergi mrsm dah.

saya dapat mrsm langkawi awak.

jauhnya. jauh betul dgn awak. :(

saya sedih.

nasib baik ada handphone kan?

saya happy sangat tau wak.

kalau lah saya lebih dekat pada awak waktu tu..

takkan saya lepaskan awak skejap pun.

dan saya akan tetap berdiri didepan awak.

tapi sayang, saya jauh.

tapi, tak lama lepas tu, awak balik pada dia.

walaupun saya tak suka.

tapi, saya rasa saya tidak mempunyai hak utk menghalang awak.

awak memilih dia.

saya memulangkan awak pada dia.

saya merelakan awak pergi.

walau pun saya tak mahu.

itulah kesilapan yang saya tak dapat lupakan sampai sekarang.

sebab sekarang, awak dgn org lain,

jauh lebih bahagia masa awak dgn dia dulu. bahkan dgn saya.

awak, saya tahu saya tidak dapat memberikan apa2 kepada awak.

kalau lah saya diberi masa yg lebih panjang.

namun saya yg membiarkan awak pergi.

part II

pada mula pengenalan i dgn u, u dgn org lain.

so, i just let the feeling go away.

but then we keep texting after u broke up with him,

and we become so close.

i remember that u text me using ur mom's phone.

it was hard to keep in touch with u.

but it was enough.

and i remember that i received 2 letters from u.

it was hand written.

ouh, that was so sweet.

sweetest moment of my life.

i kept the letter in my box at home.

it has been there sampai sekarang.

and i still look at em when i have time. :)

ure so sweet that i can't resist.

i dunno.

1 day become friends, 1day we become bestfriend, and next, we become lovers.

1st date with u was at the pizza hut.

i remember that time.

oh, we were so young at that time.

and i was so naive.

that was my 1st date.

whenever i have break, i come home,

and my mom wants me to go to tuition,

i try to registered the same tuition as urs.

:)

we walk together,

we talk, we sat on a bench together,

we laugh, we did everything together

eventho it wasn't that much,

but enough to make u happy.

i was so glad.

and when i have to go back to school,

trust me, i feel so sad.

not because i hate school,

but i hate being apart from u.

my parents know about us.

my mom was okay.

but not for my dad.

he's afraid that i might loose my focus on spm.

but its not true,

u know, ure my bench mark.

ure the strength to keep me study.

because, i was hoping that we could go to the same university and study together,

and i dun have to be apart from u anymore.

and then the spm results came out,

i got 8A's but u got 9A's

ahhh..i lost.

and surprisingly , my dad ask about ur result,

and i told him.

after that i realize that he's ok that i'm with u.

he knows i'm on the right track.

i guess so.

i was so happy.

but then, i have to go to plkn,

argh..why life has to be so cruel?

why? why?

and a night before i have to go,

i called u..

and it broke my heart.

when u say that u want us to live our life separately.

u said that u tried to love me,

but u can't.

i've been asking myself why ever since.

why now?

why why and why.

i cut the line with tears and pain.

and i have to away the next day.

2 and half months was a painful meaningless time at my life.

at one point, u wanna get back again,

i was so happy.

and i accept it without thinking.

because u're the one that i've been thinking for the past few months.

but it was a short time.

until u said it again. with the same reason.

after that, we never contacted each other again.

until,

a few months later, u contacted me back.

but i was with sumone else.

and u know that.

that was the reason why u're contacted me.

u said u were jealous.

if only we hadnt broke up, then, it will be u not her.

no one can melt my heart accept u and her.

we were not supposed to contact at the 1st place.

why must u showed up at that time?

why? why?

but deep inside, i was so happy.

because u said u were jealous.

and u said, u love me.

it shud been u instead.

and there it goes.

we keep texting. til i forgot that i was with someone else.

at that point, i was trying to break up with her.

u.. u..

u have no idea. what have u done to me..

i remember the time when i was at home. and i came to ur house,

we walk, we talk, we laugh, we were holding each other hands.

we take pictures together.

i am not gonna let u leave me again.

never. never.

i was blind.

i was deaf.

i was cruel.

because u were my weakness.

and i finally broke up with her.

and i tried to get back to u.

but u said, u cant.

u said, i'm too good for u.

u dont want to get back with me.

you..i've been wondering why.

why do u did this to me?

my 1st a level was a disaster.

i never studied.

i was among the bottom 4 in the overall results.

and then, i know u were already with someone else.

i cudnt stand up for my self.

i cudnt cry anymore.

ther were no tears left.

i dun even know what "sad" is.

i was just about to die.

my parents were so worried.

they were my lifeline.

they saved me when no one can.

and then, i saw my mom was crying in front of me.

she asked me what happened.

she was afraid that i took drugs.

i cudnt stand it anymore.

i hugged her.

and i told her everything from the start.

with my tears roll down..

they helped me stand back.

to forget everything.

they visited me once a month.

i was able to smile again.

no one knws my pain.

except them.

until i manage to score on my final,

i got 13 out of 15. enough to let me further my study at overseas.

i hugged my dad and my mom with tears.

i was so happy.

i took everything, as a process of learning.

when ppl said, "dont look back, look foward"

for me, u have to look back..

without it, u cant be what u are now.

u look foward, but dont u never look back.

it keeps me on track.

it keeps me on the rite path.

i know i'm on the right path.

this is what i am now.

i've grown up.

looking at myself,

what i've become today.

i am so proud of myself.

i'm happy.

i have bestfriends, i have friends, i have my family,

and i still have my part I & II as my bestfriends.

all of them are my lovers.

i am a happy man.

i am happy for them.

i don't have regrets.

i am happy for them.

well, actually it's monday today.

i have so many things to write here.

but thats it for now.

i wanna study.

"wanted"

WANTED

sugar mummy wanted.

age : 25-35

status : doesn't matter

working

salary : 10K above. :)

have atleast a bungalow

have carS

like to travel

tak banyak songeh.

tak kuat jeles.

mesti cantik.

manja.

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i'm tagged by fm. :)

Rules: It's harder than it looks! Copy to your own blog, erase my answers, enter yours, and tag five people including the person who tagged you. Use the first letter of your name to answer each of the following questions. They have to be real.. nothing made up! IF the person before you had the same first initial, you must use different answers. You cannot use any word twice and you can't use your name for the boy/girl name question.

What is ur name:
Mohd Syafiq Bin Abd Kadir

A four letter word:

Mama

A boys name:

Michael

A girl's name:

Maria

An occupation:

Model

Something you'll wear:

Misai palsu?

A type of food:

Mushroom soup

Something found in the bathroom:

Mangkuk tandas?

A place:

Malaysia :)

A reason for being late:

Malas? :P

Something u'd shout:

Makcik kau lah weh!

Something you drink:

Melon juice woth no sugar? :)

A musical group:

Muse! absolutely!

An animal:

Monyet?

A type of car:

Mazda RX8!

A type of fruit:

Manggis!

hahahah! ryn! i've done it while making my spagetti! :P

"you"

i don't like people who doesn't have respect to other's opinion.

u can argue with me,

but argue with respect.

don't simply insult other's opinion.

especially when u insult things that i like.

its like ure insulting me as well.

i honestly don't like it at all.

that's is when i start being rude.

i like mature people.

don't act like a child.

if ure not, stop being one.

but who am i to judge u, or to change u?

in times u'll learn.

i dont mind.

i'll be having an exam in a few weeks time.

i have lots of work to do.

lots of project to do.

u dont have any idea about it.

and please don't blame me for being such an ass.

when u steps into my world, u'll know.

i was never thought to hate anyone.

never never never.

i never hate anyone.

look at urself and grow up.

i hate it when u insult me.