Tuesday, October 20, 2009

Sunday, October 18, 2009

"It doesnt matter"

eventho aku tatawu pon ape yg aku patut tulis utk entry mggu ni, still wanna write something jgak.
first and foremost, hari raya pon da abes. and yesterday was the last open house aku pgy, it was at my frens place, and awesome guys.
and the 2nd house was at mana tah Metraville. rumah MAS punya CEO rasanya. besa gila and damn the laksa johor was very delicious.
hahaha.
makan makan makan. gemuk lah aku
hurmm..thers something that been running thru my mind during this weekend.
remember that yg aku pena btaw pasal housemate aku yg tatawu lah kenapa ngn dia.
and aku dapat la tawu from my other housemate yg macam rapat jgak la dgn dia.
die story2 la kt aku..
ade org cakap, die mmg tak ngam aku.
sebab aku dia taknak balik rumah.
yg aku terkejut, dari kolej lg die tak ngam ngn aku.
oh wth.
since aku tawu aku masuk group rumah ni pon last minute kan.
aku tade grup. aku join..tade bantahan pon.
aku tak kesah kalau ada org taknak aku join, tp sila lah bersuara.
aku tak kesah. seriously aku tak.
and tak payah la hipokrit sgt buat2 macam tade pape ngn aku, tak payah la jd rumate aku kalau kau dah tak suka aku kan.
ape masalah?
ada suara,
ada mulut,
CAKAP.
pening
kusut
aku nk buat apa?
aku diam la since die pon tak cakap ape2.
ini cerita org. takkan aku nk pecaya bulat2.
so fr the time being, aku akan DIAM.
bukan tanda aku stuju, tp LANTAK KAU LAH.
org laen tade masalah pon ngn aku.
kenapa kau yg ada masalah.
and aku bukan jenis yg suka DIAM2 ni.
Eff.You.See.Kay.
spell it.

what i felt..


i've been thinking bout her.
i've been stalking is fb profile.
she seems happy.
i'm glad.
i'm over it, but sometimes,
i miss her.
and how wish i cud love her more.
re do what i did in the past.
stick with her.
make her smile everyday.
wont let a single drop of tear come out from her eyes.
give her everything. that i thought i already did. but the fact is, nothing.
after what she did, i still..still..have this tiny piece of heart that wanted to tell her how much i love her.
and how i wish i could prevent her from leaving me.
i'm the most simple minded guy u ever met,
i know i have nothing much to offer,
i dont have money,
i may not have the gentleness that u want.
i'm fragile.
i have a small heart.
that beat very fast whenver
you touch me,
u stare at me,
u hold my hands,
u smile at me,
and the day i lost u, was the day i lost everything.
and i'm giving up on love.
i could never ever love anyone else after u.
i tried, but i cant.
before anything happen, i make it stop.
because i cant.
and i cant.
and will never be.

this is me.
i love you.

Wednesday, October 07, 2009

"i was born to make you happy"


I'm sitting here alone up in my room
And thinking about the times that we've been through
(oh my love)
I'm looking at a picture in my hand

Trying my best to understand
I really want to know what we did wrong
with a love that felt so strong

If only you were here tonight
I know that we could make it right

CHORUS
I don't know how to live without your love
I was born to make you happy
'Cause you're the only one within my heart
I was born to make you happy
Always and forever you and me
That's the way our lives should be
I don't know how to live without your love
I was born to make you happy

I know I've been a fool since you've been gone
I'd better give it up and carry on (oh my love)
'Cause living in a dream of you and me
is that the way my life should be?

I don't want to cry a tear for you
So forgive me if I do
If only you were here tonight
I know that we could make it right

CHORUS

I'd do anything, I'd give you my world
I'd wait forever, to be your girl
Just call out my name,
and I will be there
Just to show you how much I care

CHORUS

Always and forever you and me
That's the way our life should be
I don't know how to live without your love
I was born to make you happy
I was born to make you happy
Always and forever you and me
that's the way our life should be
I don't know how to live without your love
I was born to make you happy.

p/s: this song meant a lot to me.

Monday, October 05, 2009

MY RAYA

well, cudnt find a suitable time to write blog.
been busy with raya and all the open house.
today is the last day of my 1 week mid term break.hahaha. baru ada masa nk tulis since thers no open house today.



"raya ouh raya"
the first day of raya was at m'sian hall. damn lah so many people ther. its my 1st experience celebrating raya here. eventho its not the best as raya in malaysia, but then we all gather in 1 place and dapat raya sama2 wif all my frens jadi best pulak.
here, i'll share some pic taken on that day.see how many people there. this is just some of them. pon da ramai kan.
not bad la actually. the food was awesome! different types of food ada. and thers lontong, laksa johor pon ada lah! oh ya, i'm wearing redish orange baju melayu on that day.
oh well, i knw its hot. :P



here some of the pic with all my housemates..hmm..well, we do have a problem during raya. man..we are older enough. stop acting like a child lah.grow up. haih. malas lah nk cerita what and why and who kan. raya2 ni..malas nk spoil kan blog ni.



during this 1 week break, there were so many open house lah kan..
this one was at stanmore girls place. the girl in front of me is shiera. ahaha. i thought that this picture was cute kan. so i upload it. :)
then after that, the next day there was a "potluck" lead by irfan. ahaha. we manage to gather a big potluck involving ex-KMS. yeah babeh. and it was fuc*ing awesome. there were lots..lots of food. and the most important thing, is we all manage to gather all of us. yeah! and it was fun! i just cant stop eating. haih. going to cut some food after this. seing all the picture, i look so fat. kan?
"oh man, ada org snap i'm eating a chicken"


hahaha. this blog is for ryn. i wanted to tell her about how's my raya here. and there u go dear. and more to come in the future.
i miss you :)
til next time everyone!